A visit to my friends at work on Las Vegas BLVD

This was today’s outfit of the day as I made my way to Las Vegas BLVD (strip) to visit my friends. It was a fun day getting to visit my old friends and managers at the Excalibur today. Did. It get to do much but got to hangout with them for a bit and talk with them as well. I miss them so much! Today was an accomplishment getting myself together to get out of the house for once. Yes I feel exhausted even though it was just for a few hours. As depression has been difficult lately for me. Not wanting to go out at all. Wanting to sleep all day and do nothing at all. So yes it was an accomplishment for me today. And tomorrow I will get to spend the day with my best friend! I missed her so much and I finally get to meet her baby! And I’m exited for that! 

I’ll be updating you all tomorrow of the shenanigans my best friend and I did along with her baby! The day has got to be fun! Talk to you guys tomorrow!! 

Stay Safe, Stay Gorgeous!

With Love, 

          Venuz <3

 

Weekend self-care day

     This past Saturday, I did a self-care day/evening and it felt good. I like doing self-care days but I rarely do them. Not because I do not want to but because since at the moment I live with my mom at the moment. So, whenever I do or try to do anything of the sort she finds something wrong with it. I did not come here today to complain, I came because I wanted to share the products that I used that day, and what I did while on my self-care day to feel a but relaxed and such. So let’s start!

About a month ago this shampoo and conditioner was given to me by my mom. It did not have a bad smell

But it was not something that I liked. Though I liked the way it made my hair feel though, and I want to think that it did somewhat helped my hair grow even if it was a tiny but. Every time I wash my hair I wash it twice before any conditioner, why? To me it feels that I washed everything away from my head and hair, all the dirty and bad crap including if I used any other product, such as gel, muse or such to make my hair look nicer and to tame frizzy hairs. After the second I go in with the conditioner massage it in just like I do with the shampoo and leave the conditioner in for about five to ten minuses give or take. While I was my face and body, then rinse off. 

I found this at thee Dollar Tree a while back, and I used it for the first or second time on Saturday. And let me tell you it smells really good and made my face feel soft and clean. It does smell like blueberries but very lightly, but you can smell the fruitiness in there though. The face soap it self is blue, a nice blue, it does bubble up like most face soaps. It will leave your face feeling cleaned and refreshed and soft. If you have a Dollar Tree near by I highly recommend you picking one up if you see it.

Now, this body lotion I bought it from a Dollar General, and just Saturday I used the last bit of the lotion. I liked the smell, and how it made my skin feel. Soft hydrated with a nice scent. Im not sure if it helped to get my skin firm and supple, but it sure made it feel soft thats for sure. I am not sure if it was for that supposed Q10 to whatever that is in there.But I want to think it did something. 

Now. I found this leave in conditioner at the Dollar Tree and I got my felengies on it! As you can see, and I like how it makes my hair feel. I’ve used that brand of shampoos and conditioners for as long as I can remember. I will usually go for the strawberries and cream, the sun ripped strawberries or the coconut one. I like how the brand leave my hair nice and shiny and with a nice smell. This one I use it specially when I use the shampoo bar that I get at the Dollar Tree.

This wich hazel Ive had it for a while now, and I like it. I like the rose scent that it has. Whenever I use it to cleanse my face after washing my face, it makes it feel soft and hydrated, with a faint smell of roses of course. I don’t remember where I bought it from but I’m glad I was able to get it when I was able to do so.

These two night and day creams I got them from the Dollar Tree. I personally like how they smell. To me they have the subtle scent of a cantaloupe. And I’m not mad about it, since I like cantaloupe anyway. Just a few weeks ago I was at Walmart and saw they had cantaloupes, I grabbed one and that thing was a goner within two days. It tasted so stinking good! But anyway, these two face creams to me have a nice sense to them, and they leave your face nice,  soft, hydrated and glowing. If you have oily face I do not recommend them, if you’d like to try them just make sure to be careful. I do not want you to break out.

And now! For the final contender of the night this face mask! I do not remember where I got it from. I used this one for my self-care day, and it was nice. The smell of roses is what made me relax while I had some LoFi music on while I waited for it to do its thing. I liked how my face felt after. I saved the packet because I used the last of the juices in there and massaged them in to my face, which made my face feel extra nice. 

I enjoyed my self-care day very much so, and I cannot wait to do it again next week I hope. I’ll talk to you guys soon. And remember!

Stay safe, Stay Beautiful !

With Love,

                  Venuz <3

Favorite Type of Music

     Music has been a big part of my life. As a pre-teen middle school age I listened to mostly pop music. This was when my family and I lived in El Paso, TX. This was when I as well had a big stereo, I had a favorite stereo station that I listened to all the time, and you guessed it! it was pop music this was back in the early 2000's. I listened to pop music in Spanish. This was in my unpopular opinion when pop music was better the music, and lyrics told a story and in some way a meaning and such. Maybe I am being biased because I don't listen to pop music anymore. There are a few pop songs that I like in English as well. Jessie McCartney was my crush back in middle school, and of course you cannot go wrong with old school Christina Aguilera music, and YOU will never go wrong with Britney Spears because no one hates Britney in my opinion. One of favorite songs back then was 'Milkshake by Kelis' I did not know what the song insinuated back then until I listened to it again a few weeks ago and oh my goodness! Either way I still like the song anyway another favorite song of mine was 'Going Down by Young Joc' and do not give me wrong I still like it. I listened to it a few days ago on YouTube. Now 8th grade is when I started discovering about rock music, and I started liking it, the first rock band I liked and discovered was Good Charlotte. The one cd I owned from them back then was The Chronicles of Life & Death. It was one of my favorite albums I'm not going to lie. Then right when I started high school is when I started to discover more about rock music now called 'emo' music, but I'm not even mad about it. I embrace being an 'elder emo' now. I remember when I first discovered My Chemical Romance, I feel in love with the band, and had the biggest crush on Gerard Way. I believe I first heard of them when I heard Helena, and that was one of the song's I listened to them most. The main band I listened to and still do to this day is My Chemical Romance, but other than them I also listened to Seether, Simple Plan, Halestorm, Theory of a Deadman, and of course The Used. Little by little I was being introduced to heavier rock music, aka black metal, trash meal, etc. I was introduced to In This Moment by my boyfriend then. They are one of my favorite rock/metal bands that is fronted by a woman and let me tell you that Maria Brink is a lot more gorgeous in person, nicer and kinder than you think. I saw them live a few years back, I enjoyed my time at the concert very much so. Shinedown is another that I listen to and they were my first concert that I went to see at 19. 

    So all in all my favorite type of music since middle school has been rock & 'emo' music. I don't think it'll change any time soon.

                                                                   Stay Safe, Stay Gorgeous

                                                                                    With Love,

                                                                                               Venuz

scythe & Sparrow by Brynne Weaver

   So, the book is different yet the same. Epilogue starts with somewhat of a background on Rose, how she came to be in the circus life as well as a tarot reader and such. Though not to the full extent but gives you a small preview of her. As well as how she became the sparrow and helps other women who ask her for help in the most unusual ways in part, with the help of her tarot cards.

    How Fionn and Rose came to know one another was a bit unusual to me at least, yet at the same time it was in part kind of a Halmark movie scene in some way. Which I am not mad about at all, though what is partly funny to me is how Fionn yes though heart broken and living his Cinderman era in Nebraska is still shy as heck! As he is walking back towards his house after an evening run, gets a notification that someone has broken into his clinic. Though he thinks is Barbara a raccoon who likes to go through the medicine cabinet and get high and what not as well as any trash panda go through the trash and such. As he walks in through his clinic and do a sweep just to make sure his trash panda is not going through any medication, or trash finds Rose lying in one of the rooms with a cut pant leg, broken bone and blood. As he calls the ambulance he tries to in some way stabilize her leg and keep her as conscious as he's able to. After Fionn helps with surgery to get Rose's leg back in to place and such. As soon as Fionn finds out Rose has been leased from the hospital goes to her RV where she was dropped off to in hopes just to leave her motorcycle there and just make sure she'll be okay. Does not buy it that she'll be fine and invites her to stay at his house for the mean time while she recovers from her broken leg. In some way they start to know each other little by little. She finds out that one of his hobbies is crocheting with little old grandmas. Which I do not think is a bad thing at all, being surrounded by grandma's once a week would be the high light of my week if I'm being honest. Even if it was going to underground boxing fights every so often because why not. One of my favorite parts in the book was when Rowan and Sloane get to Fionn's house, after one of many of their yearly killing games. Is how Rose gets to meet them and she thinks that Rowan was the one who hurt Sloane. Though the scene how all three of them meet while Fionn is at his office is not the same as Butcher & Blackbird even though it was hilarious to me, at lean when I read B&B that part when Rowan and Sloane got to Fionn's house. As I mentioned before even though the scene is not the exact same, just by Rose relating the question Fionn asked what Rowan's childhood nickname was funny as heck, to me at least. It does have scenes where Lark, Sloane and Rose get to know each other, and how they all three become the best of friends. Rose was given a gold star by Lark and Sloane gave her the 'you're never getting rid of us, you're one of us now!' I just like the fact that if one of the girls is upset at one of the brothers all three of them gang up at the one brother. As well as how each one of them has the 'you do that/say that again I will murder you' glare for each of the brothers Lachlan, Rowan & Fionn.

    In some way Fionn and Rose's love story is somewhat like a Hallmark move it also gives dark Lifetime movie a little, and I am not mad about it all. I actually like it, I like the fact that he was willing to give his all to help her even to cover her murderous scenes and take blame in some ways for her and telling her that she finished it rather than agreeing with her that she 'started it' like she always told herself. Fionn was willing to give it all and protect Rose at all costs even from herself, was such a move. Even though on the surface he was like his brothers unintentionally at the same time he was different, choosing to be different and not give in to the same thing his brothers did, one being a serial killer and the other one being a contract murderer. 

    Do I recommend this book?? Absolutely! That is if you are not squeamish and don't easily get grossed out or any of such. Yes, it definitely has dark humor, a lot of funny parts, including but not limited a trash panda who likes to get high and always in search of more snacks and makes friends with Poddles in the circus life. Though I feel it could had been a bit funnier, and darker than the first two books, it was still okay enough. All three books ruin some type of food for you, such as ice cream *vanilla*, cotton candy, and the nonfoods such as eyeballs, cannibalism and such. I personally did not mind any of that. So, yea as I said before if you like dark humor, comedy, and such I highly recommend the book. Or shall I say the trilogy. I enjoyed it a lot.

  

                                                     Stay Safe, Stay Beautiful

                                                            With Love,

                                                                        Venuz <3

P.S. This was the final book of the trilogy, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. there is a book you would recommend for me to read next, kindly feel free to share your suggestions. Your recommendations would be appreciated. Thank You!!

Leather & Lark by Brynne Weaver

 

                                                        

    Leather & Lark, the story of 'hitman' aka serial killer for hire. When he was called to help 'clean' the murder scene that Lark Montague did. He got upset in regard to that. As he was close enough to convince his youngest brother to move back to Boston, after a nasty break up he had. As this was on a Halloween party, Lachlan Kane can be a very deranged killer, but even worse when it has to do with the people he loves dearly. That night he was called in by his boss to clean that murder scene he was upset not at Lark but because he left his brother all alone in a miserable state of mind at a party close to convince him to move back. He let his nasty emotions out on 'Blunder Barbie' aka Lark Montague.

    Now this is where it starts getting good in my point of view. Years later at Sloane's (Larks best friend) and her husband Rowans new restaurant opening called Butcher & Blackbird. Lark and Lachlan get to mean one another for the very first time few years after that one chaotic Halloween they both had. They just do not know who one another is, and that they already had met one another in different circumstances. As the first time they met, she called him 'Budget Batman' and he called her 'Blunder Barbie'. Of course, as it was a Halloween night the very first time they met and such. Lark had walked out to the balcony of Rowans apartment when she thought no one was watching her to get a breath of fresh air. Lachlan followed suite right behind her. They both started somewhat getting to know each other, and of course it led up to both kissing one other and such. She found out in that tine who he was, as he had let out his 'Christ Jesus' in a manic raspy voice he had used the first time around.

    After the whole finding out who one another was she stated that she "hated him" because he had put her in his car's trunk the very first time. She had escaped and part it was the reason his boss Leander lost the contract he had with Larks stepdad. Now Larks auntie Ether convinces her to marry Lachlan not just to save his life and her gaining the contract back with Lachlan's boss but to also save his brothers Rowan and Fionn's life as well as much as Sloanes' life as well. The whole I 'dislike' and 'hate' towards one another and all earns them to get to know one another at a deeper level. As well as him finding out that Lark is a 'people deleter' as she likes to call it. No one knows what she does or who she truly is beneath the rainbows and sunshine, glitter and gold stars full of energy and all. But when she confides what she does to Lachlan she feels much better, as she knows in some way that he won't judge her or tell anyone what she truly is or what she does underneath it all. The more they get to know one another the more they start falling for one another and think if there may be something more than just an 'arranged' married between the two. Lachlan is in some way the first to start falling in love for her. Yes, there is something between them yet none of them want to say a single thing to one another, because for one they do not know how to say it or how to start with that conversation. As they both are in some way full of pride with a soft side. I will say this though somewhere on chapter 17 Lark gives Lachlan some not all but some details on what happened at Ashburn school and why both Sloane and Lark dropped out and finished and graduated homeschooled. As well as the why she dislikes small spaces. in regard to her Claustrophobia. 

    Long story short though I recommend the book. If you like dark humor, spiciness, romance. I highly recommend this book. I just feel it could be a bit more attention grabby, and more descriptive in some ways. I just feel like it was not grabbing my attention as much as Butcher & Blackbird did. It did not give me much to imagine any of the scenes or picture much of it at all. Yes, I loved the book and the love/hate from the characters. I just feel it was not much to go on for, as much as I wanted to. But we'll see with the next and last book in the series Scythe & Sparrow.

                                                                                  

                                                                                With Love, 

                                                                                                Venuz <3

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A Dollar Tree haul!!

Ok guys!! So I and my mom found these juices at our local Dollar Tree. We had first found 

about these juices a few months ago and she and I bought some and the flavors were 

mostly coconut water & passionfruit and coconut water & mango. But yesterday we found these flavor

coconut water and pineapple. It is so stinking good!! I love coconut water its so refreshing! and cooling to me at least specially when its iced cold on a hot summer day. I will keep on buying these as long as I can and as log as I find them at the Dollar Tree.

So! These stir fry cup of noodles, its a different flavor that is new to me.

I have had the BBQ one before, but I don't think I have seen that flavor before that I

can recall. But anyway, so I bought two of them just last night and I had one, and I can say it 

did not disappoint at all. Yes it was spicy, but not it burns your mouth type of way that it feels

there is fire in there and you feel like your about to die at all. Just enough spice that it will be okay to 

finish it in an okay amount of time.

Now guys! Let me start with the strawberry cookies okay!? I saw two packs left and

 I had to get them! I was excited that I was able to find even if it was two

 packs of the cookies the strawberry flavor.

Why you ask? Because the strawberry flavor cookies

are my favorite one. I was saddened when I found out a few years

back that Grandma's cookies had discontinued the strawberry flavor because

'it was not a good seller' I was told by the delivery person when I was working at a gas 

station at the time. I was bummed when I was told about that. But now every time I go to the grocery store and find strawberry flavor cookies, I have to get them. Yes I know its all fake flavors and lots of

sugar and all, but I still like them very much so.

When I was younger than what I am now, there was a time when I was

mostly in the hospital for months at a time. Because at the time I did not care and 

I was not taking care of myself or my diabetes *I'm a type one by the way* and I was 

mostly in the hospital. But anyway my mom used to buy me these sudoku puzzles thinking 

it would make me better at math or something. It never did, but what id did though was keeping me entertained. I enjoyed the heck out of these a lot. Saw a few sudoku puzzle books and decided for this one at the Dollar Tree. Because if I feel bored with anything else at home yet I want to busy myself with something. I can grab the sudoku book and work on it, just because.

So!! I saw three books including this one on the book section at Dollar Tree.

I was going to purchase all three, but I decided against it and went for this one instead. 

Only because I am not sure if I will like it or not, if I find that I like the writing and such, I will go back 

and purchase the other ones and give them a try. I also went for it because other than wanting to read it

I want to write my own review for the book. I have not found any reviews for this book or the author.

But anyway, I wanted to give it a try because why not, I also am reading Brynne Weaver's trilogy books all over again and writing my reviews on all three of them. I am enjoying the heck out of the books now more than I did the first time around. So I hope you are looking forward to that because I am. :)

As soon as I entered the store as typical of me I went straight to the DIY section. I do not know why I tend to do that to almost every store I go to if it has a DIY section I like heading towards that area. Anyway though, I found this industrial glue stick. Not exactly sure what I will use this glue stick for but I am sure Ill find a use for it. I like that it is a mess free glue stick. 

I grabbed these paints, because I have a wooden box drawer

that I bought at Ikea a few months ago when I went with my mom.

I had bought it because since I have lots of DIY items and nick knacks it serves 

well to store them well in there. But anyway! I bought the paints because I want to 

paint the wooden box now. I was originally going to buy three with the third one being 

purple but since I bout the pink and blue I figured I can mix both and make purple. I have

an idea on how I want to paint it, I just have to make do on the time to sit and paint.

So, I had been on the lookout for a coloring book for some time. I found several at the Dollar Tree

but this one caught my eyeballs more than the other ones. Of course, I had to grab it and opted to grab a new pack of crayons as well. The pack of crayons are new colors to me at least; I don't think I have seen that pack before. I am excited foe the coloring book, no I did not go for the coloring book because of Tick Tock or whatever! I don't even own an account to be honest. I just wanted one because I often times get bored, and I don't know what to do and since I mostly spend time in my room. I don't want to do anything else or even read or watch videos on YouTube or even moves so I went for this to pass time and not feel as bored as I often am. I just need one coloring book that I know I like and perhaps buy another one in the near future as long as I know I will be almost done with the one that I have. I do not need one hundred million books or colors, let alone expensive ones, that I probably will forget about. So yeah, I am okay with this one for the mean time thank you very much.

So, this soap! I found it at the Dollar Tree I have the Orangie looking one as well. Though I am on the hunt for the green one. I am excited that I have been able to find these at my local Dollar Tree store, specially that brand, I have read and heard a lot of good things about the brand. I am just missing the green one though I hope to find it soon. As I cannot wait to start using them. I also have had found other good name brands at the Dollar Tree even dupes of name brands that are jus as good if not better than the name brands in my opinion. 

These antibacterial hand wipes I like to carry them in my bag for just in case, especially when I'm out and about at the thrift store, or when I am out at the park and take my own food and my hands get sticky or don't have a restroom nearby or anywhere to wash my hands. To me these come in handy pretty much in about any occasion. I constantly wash my hands more so when I am out and abut and start feeling my hands nasty, dirty, sticky or a combination of all three. To me though they do come in handy in any occasion, even hand sanitizer. I like that these hand wipes are green apple scented. 

And last but not least! Deodorant! I needed some deodorant of course like any 'normal' person.

I saw this one and of course gave it some sniff sniff and I liked how it smelled! It smells more like Lavander than it does vanilla either way I like how it smells. I tend to go for the spray deodorant as I like it better and it does not stain my shirts at all, like it does with the bar ones like this one no matter the brand. Now since its summertime in Las Vegas, the spray deodorant does not do me on the least any justice. So I have to resort to the bar deodorant like this one, so I don't smell nasty, or nastier than I should when I'm out and about on this heat. 

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This is pretty much what I bought at my local Dollar Tree. I am pretty happy with my purchase and trust me none of this will go to waste. Everything will be used. All of it is what I wanted and needed anyway and it will sure keep me busy for some time. I will talk to you all next time.

Stay safe and Stray Beautiful.

                                                      With Love,

                                                                        Venuz <3

Butcher & Blackbird by Brynne Weaver

 

Hello everyone! So!...

Here's this book I discovered sometime last year I want to say?!

Not sure how (cant remember) I found out about this book, BUT!! I heard this book as an 

audio and I enjoyed it very much. Yes it’s very spicy, something I did not expect at all, also dark as well, yet funny. Yes it has dark humor. As well as the story of how two serial killers meet one another and end up falling in love with one another. They also have an anual game where they both haunt for other serial killers, Sloane get to ‘pluck’ the eyes out and gets to take a ‘trophy’ if you like dark romance, humor I highly recommend this book series.

Butcher & Blackbird, aka Rowan and Sloane, are two serial killers who haunt other serial killers. Both of them have their dark back stories of course as any serial killer right? Or not in certain circumstances. How Rowan and Sloane met was because it so happened they both were haunting for the same person or serial killer in their case. She Sloane had gotten to him the guy she killed first. He ended up caging her right after she stabbed him right before he fell and died. Rowan though came a few days later, and found her caged in. Dirty and bloodied not from her own blood but from the guy she had murdered just three days before Rowan arrived and let her out of that cage after questioning her and such. In some way it was funny to me. The comments he made and how she thought she looked all mangled and dirty for a first meet. Mind you she had been caged in for about three days though. After she was out and freshened up he invited her for ribs and beer. The way he could not stop staring at her chest, thinking she was such a beautiful creature, what was funny to me was the ‘no bra!’ thing he could not get out of his head. As well as how he was reading her in some type of way. The way he was looking at her looking for ways to escape. As they chatted and got to know each other in the beginning though. Just as they got to know each other and came up with an anual killing game. Hunting for a different and specific serial killer each year was interesting to me at least. It was funny how every time Rowan was able he’d tell her “you’ll love me one day!”. Him thinking she was going to fall for him first was a something else because he was the one who fell in love with her first. The way he protected her in almost every which way was adorable. Towards the end of the book when Rowan is taking Sloane to his brothers house the Dr. because of her dislocated shoulder. From the last haunt they made. They meet Rose who thinks Rowan is to blame for Sloan’s arm being dislocated and looking tall battered and beaten. That part of the book was way too hilarious to o me! How Rose calls him almost every name under the sun and the moon all the while describing how she’s going to murder him for what ‘he did’ to Sloane. As well as how Sloane describes what Rowan is to her ‘her man-guy’. Some of the dark parts of the book or at least how they were told were just funny to me but also far at the same time. Somewhere in the middle of the book if I recall correctly, is where they both Sloane and Rowan get invited to a cannibals’ serial killers house for ‘dinner’ but let me tell you that Rowan had no idea of the situation or who the host is. Long story short Rowan gets drunk and drugged, eats the ‘meat’ and slips out that he is in love with Sloan all the while she is trying to make him realise what’s going around him specially who the ‘servant’ of the host who she thinks is lobotomised. Hours after Rowan wakes up realises what is going on she ends up killing the guy who invited them for dinner and let’s just say, that when they found the guy who was  ‘lobotomised’ . He was eating vanilla ice cream, and let’s just say that some of the ingredients in that ice cream….where well….an ice cream ruined situation for me. The vanilla flavour at least was. Other than that I loved the book overall, yes dark, funny, romantic and highly spicy in some type of way. If you like all then I highly recommend and suggest you read the book. It may make you want the love that Rowan and Sloane have for one another. At least it did for me.

*Remember…. Butcher & Blackbird (B&B) is the first book in the series *

With Love,

               Venuz <3

NEXT UP!......

Happy Pride Month Eveyone!!

 

I CELEBRATE YOU!

YOU ARE SEEN, YOU ARE HEARD

I STAND WITH YOU

Hello....how my diabetes is going, and the job search?

    Hello everyone! How is everyone doing? Me, I'm doing well now after close to two weeks of my mom having to call the paramedics because of low blood sugars and such, with one of those being a adjustment disorder. I of course made an appointment with the Psychiatrist that I am seeing at the moment because of the car accident that I was in some time ago, I think I told you guys about it a few posts ago, I think. it also had something to I want to think in regards of the medication that I am taking for depression and such. I do not remember anything that lead up to that incident at all. I just know I woke up in the hospital, crying to myself and telling myself that I was not crazy and such. It all felt overwhelming and unsure of what to do after that. I though just took it easy for a few days of course and making calls to make an appointment to the Psychiatrist and talking it over with the speech therapist.

    A few days later again my mom had to call the paramedics because once again my blood sugar was low. All of this was in a span of close to two weeks. Now yesterday once again my mom had to call once again in regards of my blood sugar being low. I do not know what is going on and the why I keep having these low blood sugars at night. I make sure I eat something right before bed. Also, my mental health being shit as well. I am sure that if my mom ends up having to call the paramedics a few more times and I end up in the hospital I will be well known, and I might as well end up admitting myself into the hospital next time I end up in there just in case.

    Now...job searching has been stupid. I have applied almost everywhere that I for sure know are hiring and that I have the qualifications for, yet no one calls for an interview, some are nice enough to send a rejection email, which is nice at least they had the decency to send that email that I was not picked amongst who knows how many had applied before me. Maybe the people they picked had a lot more experience than I did or saw something that they liked in that person/s other than what they saw on my resume or application. I'm not giving up though. The 'free' time that I have I get to make YouTube videos and will have to update you guys a lot more on here than I had ever. Though I surely do not know what you guys will like to read or watch on YouTube. Everyone is welcome to leave a comment on what will you like to read or even if you'd like to watch my YouTube videos. 

Hey! How have you been? Long time no talk.

    Hello everyone! It has been a long while since we have talked. A lot has changed and happened since last time we spoke. I can’t begin to explain everything that has gone right and wrong. Though even with the challenges that I am currently experiencing I am grateful for the things that have gone right with it all. Grateful that I get to wake up another day and extremely happy that I also get to spend time with my four legged baby-child yes may sound crazy but he’s the only thing that is making me feel sane and happy. 

   I’ve got so many things I am planning for and others I’m still planning for. Just not sure when it all will come to light. There is so much I want to talk about with you all. I’m just not sure how or when everything will come together. For the mean time I am focusing on myself, Toby (the dog) and getting my life back together.

  Thank you so much for reading/dealing with my thoughts and delusions that I write about. I just wanted to come by and let you all know that I’m alive. You guys should hear/read from me sometime next weekend. Stay amazing and beautiful! And throw glitter bombs at someone you love/hate

                                      With Love,

                                                   Venuz <3