Exercising + Chloe Ting challenge(s)

     Hello everyone! long time no talk! I hope everyone is doing okay so far. I came today because I wanted to say that today is been about three weeks now give or take that I started exercising. I usually do the workouts on the evening though, as I feel it works for me best. In some way it also helps me with my mental health as well, as I take the medication at nigh as prescribed by my psychiatrist. I want to think in some way it is helping me. I work out for about an hour or so, it makes me feel tired and relaxed and makes me sleep better and actually makes me go to bed as well. I want to think it is helping me in many ways than not. Even though I am not seeing many changes physically this soon, I am feeling some of the changes specially with my mental health. Yes, I have been wanting to give up and give it all up but I've come this far. 

    I am doing the Chloe Ting challenge one of them for now. I downloaded the app on my iPad that she has which it makes it in some way easier. I don't have to search for the workouts from whatever challenge she has though I don't mind looking for workouts. Her app makes it easier to work out because if I scroll it makes me not want to work out anymore. But anyway, after I do her workouts, I look for more on YouTube, I browse for what Id like to do that moment. If I cannot find something that I like I browse on the Grokker app. If I start feeling tired, I do something light or just some stretches, then a hot shower and right after I'm ready for bed. 

    I started exercising because I gained a lot of weight and I want to lose the weight. I want to feel happier, more energetic like I can conquer the world, and more confident than I do now. Happy with myself, and like I'm ready for the world. I'd like to love myself more than I already do now.

A visit to my friends at work on Las Vegas BLVD

This was today’s outfit of the day as I made my way to Las Vegas BLVD (strip) to visit my friends. It was a fun day getting to visit my old friends and managers at the Excalibur today. Did. It get to do much but got to hangout with them for a bit and talk with them as well. I miss them so much! Today was an accomplishment getting myself together to get out of the house for once. Yes I feel exhausted even though it was just for a few hours. As depression has been difficult lately for me. Not wanting to go out at all. Wanting to sleep all day and do nothing at all. So yes it was an accomplishment for me today. And tomorrow I will get to spend the day with my best friend! I missed her so much and I finally get to meet her baby! And I’m exited for that! 

I’ll be updating you all tomorrow of the shenanigans my best friend and I did along with her baby! The day has got to be fun! Talk to you guys tomorrow!! 

Stay Safe, Stay Gorgeous!

With Love, 

          Venuz <3

 

Weekend self-care day

     This past Saturday, I did a self-care day/evening and it felt good. I like doing self-care days but I rarely do them. Not because I do not want to but because since at the moment I live with my mom at the moment. So, whenever I do or try to do anything of the sort she finds something wrong with it. I did not come here today to complain, I came because I wanted to share the products that I used that day, and what I did while on my self-care day to feel a but relaxed and such. So let’s start!

About a month ago this shampoo and conditioner was given to me by my mom. It did not have a bad smell

But it was not something that I liked. Though I liked the way it made my hair feel though, and I want to think that it did somewhat helped my hair grow even if it was a tiny but. Every time I wash my hair I wash it twice before any conditioner, why? To me it feels that I washed everything away from my head and hair, all the dirty and bad crap including if I used any other product, such as gel, muse or such to make my hair look nicer and to tame frizzy hairs. After the second I go in with the conditioner massage it in just like I do with the shampoo and leave the conditioner in for about five to ten minuses give or take. While I was my face and body, then rinse off. 

I found this at thee Dollar Tree a while back, and I used it for the first or second time on Saturday. And let me tell you it smells really good and made my face feel soft and clean. It does smell like blueberries but very lightly, but you can smell the fruitiness in there though. The face soap it self is blue, a nice blue, it does bubble up like most face soaps. It will leave your face feeling cleaned and refreshed and soft. If you have a Dollar Tree near by I highly recommend you picking one up if you see it.

Now, this body lotion I bought it from a Dollar General, and just Saturday I used the last bit of the lotion. I liked the smell, and how it made my skin feel. Soft hydrated with a nice scent. Im not sure if it helped to get my skin firm and supple, but it sure made it feel soft thats for sure. I am not sure if it was for that supposed Q10 to whatever that is in there.But I want to think it did something. 

Now. I found this leave in conditioner at the Dollar Tree and I got my felengies on it! As you can see, and I like how it makes my hair feel. I’ve used that brand of shampoos and conditioners for as long as I can remember. I will usually go for the strawberries and cream, the sun ripped strawberries or the coconut one. I like how the brand leave my hair nice and shiny and with a nice smell. This one I use it specially when I use the shampoo bar that I get at the Dollar Tree.

This wich hazel Ive had it for a while now, and I like it. I like the rose scent that it has. Whenever I use it to cleanse my face after washing my face, it makes it feel soft and hydrated, with a faint smell of roses of course. I don’t remember where I bought it from but I’m glad I was able to get it when I was able to do so.

These two night and day creams I got them from the Dollar Tree. I personally like how they smell. To me they have the subtle scent of a cantaloupe. And I’m not mad about it, since I like cantaloupe anyway. Just a few weeks ago I was at Walmart and saw they had cantaloupes, I grabbed one and that thing was a goner within two days. It tasted so stinking good! But anyway, these two face creams to me have a nice sense to them, and they leave your face nice,  soft, hydrated and glowing. If you have oily face I do not recommend them, if you’d like to try them just make sure to be careful. I do not want you to break out.

And now! For the final contender of the night this face mask! I do not remember where I got it from. I used this one for my self-care day, and it was nice. The smell of roses is what made me relax while I had some LoFi music on while I waited for it to do its thing. I liked how my face felt after. I saved the packet because I used the last of the juices in there and massaged them in to my face, which made my face feel extra nice. 

I enjoyed my self-care day very much so, and I cannot wait to do it again next week I hope. I’ll talk to you guys soon. And remember!

Stay safe, Stay Beautiful !

With Love,

                  Venuz <3

Favorite Type of Music

     Music has been a big part of my life. As a pre-teen middle school age I listened to mostly pop music. This was when my family and I lived in El Paso, TX. This was when I as well had a big stereo, I had a favorite stereo station that I listened to all the time, and you guessed it! it was pop music this was back in the early 2000's. I listened to pop music in Spanish. This was in my unpopular opinion when pop music was better the music, and lyrics told a story and in some way a meaning and such. Maybe I am being biased because I don't listen to pop music anymore. There are a few pop songs that I like in English as well. Jessie McCartney was my crush back in middle school, and of course you cannot go wrong with old school Christina Aguilera music, and YOU will never go wrong with Britney Spears because no one hates Britney in my opinion. One of favorite songs back then was 'Milkshake by Kelis' I did not know what the song insinuated back then until I listened to it again a few weeks ago and oh my goodness! Either way I still like the song anyway another favorite song of mine was 'Going Down by Young Joc' and do not give me wrong I still like it. I listened to it a few days ago on YouTube. Now 8th grade is when I started discovering about rock music, and I started liking it, the first rock band I liked and discovered was Good Charlotte. The one cd I owned from them back then was The Chronicles of Life & Death. It was one of my favorite albums I'm not going to lie. Then right when I started high school is when I started to discover more about rock music now called 'emo' music, but I'm not even mad about it. I embrace being an 'elder emo' now. I remember when I first discovered My Chemical Romance, I feel in love with the band, and had the biggest crush on Gerard Way. I believe I first heard of them when I heard Helena, and that was one of the song's I listened to them most. The main band I listened to and still do to this day is My Chemical Romance, but other than them I also listened to Seether, Simple Plan, Halestorm, Theory of a Deadman, and of course The Used. Little by little I was being introduced to heavier rock music, aka black metal, trash meal, etc. I was introduced to In This Moment by my boyfriend then. They are one of my favorite rock/metal bands that is fronted by a woman and let me tell you that Maria Brink is a lot more gorgeous in person, nicer and kinder than you think. I saw them live a few years back, I enjoyed my time at the concert very much so. Shinedown is another that I listen to and they were my first concert that I went to see at 19. 

    So all in all my favorite type of music since middle school has been rock & 'emo' music. I don't think it'll change any time soon.

                                                                   Stay Safe, Stay Gorgeous

                                                                                    With Love,

                                                                                               Venuz

scythe & Sparrow by Brynne Weaver

   So, the book is different yet the same. Epilogue starts with somewhat of a background on Rose, how she came to be in the circus life as well as a tarot reader and such. Though not to the full extent but gives you a small preview of her. As well as how she became the sparrow and helps other women who ask her for help in the most unusual ways in part, with the help of her tarot cards.

    How Fionn and Rose came to know one another was a bit unusual to me at least, yet at the same time it was in part kind of a Halmark movie scene in some way. Which I am not mad about at all, though what is partly funny to me is how Fionn yes though heart broken and living his Cinderman era in Nebraska is still shy as heck! As he is walking back towards his house after an evening run, gets a notification that someone has broken into his clinic. Though he thinks is Barbara a raccoon who likes to go through the medicine cabinet and get high and what not as well as any trash panda go through the trash and such. As he walks in through his clinic and do a sweep just to make sure his trash panda is not going through any medication, or trash finds Rose lying in one of the rooms with a cut pant leg, broken bone and blood. As he calls the ambulance he tries to in some way stabilize her leg and keep her as conscious as he's able to. After Fionn helps with surgery to get Rose's leg back in to place and such. As soon as Fionn finds out Rose has been leased from the hospital goes to her RV where she was dropped off to in hopes just to leave her motorcycle there and just make sure she'll be okay. Does not buy it that she'll be fine and invites her to stay at his house for the mean time while she recovers from her broken leg. In some way they start to know each other little by little. She finds out that one of his hobbies is crocheting with little old grandmas. Which I do not think is a bad thing at all, being surrounded by grandma's once a week would be the high light of my week if I'm being honest. Even if it was going to underground boxing fights every so often because why not. One of my favorite parts in the book was when Rowan and Sloane get to Fionn's house, after one of many of their yearly killing games. Is how Rose gets to meet them and she thinks that Rowan was the one who hurt Sloane. Though the scene how all three of them meet while Fionn is at his office is not the same as Butcher & Blackbird even though it was hilarious to me, at lean when I read B&B that part when Rowan and Sloane got to Fionn's house. As I mentioned before even though the scene is not the exact same, just by Rose relating the question Fionn asked what Rowan's childhood nickname was funny as heck, to me at least. It does have scenes where Lark, Sloane and Rose get to know each other, and how they all three become the best of friends. Rose was given a gold star by Lark and Sloane gave her the 'you're never getting rid of us, you're one of us now!' I just like the fact that if one of the girls is upset at one of the brothers all three of them gang up at the one brother. As well as how each one of them has the 'you do that/say that again I will murder you' glare for each of the brothers Lachlan, Rowan & Fionn.

    In some way Fionn and Rose's love story is somewhat like a Hallmark move it also gives dark Lifetime movie a little, and I am not mad about it all. I actually like it, I like the fact that he was willing to give his all to help her even to cover her murderous scenes and take blame in some ways for her and telling her that she finished it rather than agreeing with her that she 'started it' like she always told herself. Fionn was willing to give it all and protect Rose at all costs even from herself, was such a move. Even though on the surface he was like his brothers unintentionally at the same time he was different, choosing to be different and not give in to the same thing his brothers did, one being a serial killer and the other one being a contract murderer. 

    Do I recommend this book?? Absolutely! That is if you are not squeamish and don't easily get grossed out or any of such. Yes, it definitely has dark humor, a lot of funny parts, including but not limited a trash panda who likes to get high and always in search of more snacks and makes friends with Poddles in the circus life. Though I feel it could had been a bit funnier, and darker than the first two books, it was still okay enough. All three books ruin some type of food for you, such as ice cream *vanilla*, cotton candy, and the nonfoods such as eyeballs, cannibalism and such. I personally did not mind any of that. So, yea as I said before if you like dark humor, comedy, and such I highly recommend the book. Or shall I say the trilogy. I enjoyed it a lot.

  

                                                     Stay Safe, Stay Beautiful

                                                            With Love,

                                                                        Venuz <3

P.S. This was the final book of the trilogy, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. there is a book you would recommend for me to read next, kindly feel free to share your suggestions. Your recommendations would be appreciated. Thank You!!