Showing posts with label #CureIt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #CureIt. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Don't judge me, Just read.....

   Lately Ive felt not my self, have not been sleeping as I "should" and when I "do" I don't want to wake up. There is days I don't even want to get off the bed and want to stay in bed all day, when ever that happens I want to call off work, just so I don't have to get off bed or get ready or any of that crap I got to do. There is other days I feel like if there is nothing wrong with me, other days I feel as if everything is so wrong, everything bothers me and want to snap someones neck. I don't in fact do it but there is days I want to though, others feel ok others feel as if everything is just so wrong I want to cry and let everything out, other days feels like there is no such thing as I mentioned earlier. I don't know whats going on and I don't think I want to know either. How do I manage to be more my "self" when I feel everything is wrong yet at the same time nothing is. 
   Ive been invited to dates and I cant bring my self to get ready and go out or even call people or any of such things "normal" people do. How is it I see people spending money like fucking crazy like no tomorrow, and I cant even buy my self a fucking soda for $0.50 cents. If I cant do that I cant even afford my medications. And that is not okay, and according to my insurance I am "making to much" that Im able to afford my own medications, but how is it that there are people living off the fucking government and at the same time they can afford illegal drugs and have a job and have everything all nice and spicy and all good, I cant have a fucking insurance to help me pay for medications that I do really need. But oh no I fucking cant have it because I make too much yet the government helps those so "needy" live off them, but I cant have the shitty insurance.
   How is that fair for me as a Diabetic that requires legal drugs to live another 12 hours and works hard to earn what I have, but those other people that live off the fucking government you give them all nice shit but I cant have that fucking insurance. You tell me how is that fair, how come I need to get drug tested and all in between just to get a job but you don't drug test and do none of that shit for people that live off the damn government, welfare and all that fucking shit. So basically you are buying them illegal drugs and taking them party but you CAN NOT help me pay for the drugs that I need to live another day?? How awesome is that, you take away my insurance because I make too much?? How nice is that!! I go to work everyday just so I can afford the rent and a fucking bus pass, but now I will have to work to be fucking broke because you CANNOT help me and take away my insurance, tell me I make way to much and tell me I got to pay out of pocket $5,000 a month for my diabetes supplies. How fucking great Mr. President, you went out of your fucking way just to take my insurance and other peoples insurance when the majority of them such as my self need it just to be able to afford medications we need on a daily basis, just to live another day. Because without our medication we die. 
   How fucking great, I barely make enough to pay the rent, bills, a bus pass and one fucking soda every two weeks. You did it Mr. President you fucking did it this time. Rasing prices on medications specially Insulin and any other Diabetes related products, just to make it another day not affordable!! You fucking did it!! Thanks Mr. Fucking President you darn did it this time. I do hope you read this and any other pledges that want you to help us the people that work hard for what we want and are fighting battles you do not know a single shit about. Many of us Diabetics CANNOT!!! Afford any medications. We can only afford one thing every 3 to 6 moths because everything is so expensive. Thanks to you I cannot afford medications at all, thanks to you I got Medicaid taken away because "I make to much". I cant even afford half a test strip, how do you want me to pay over $1000 for just one box of insulin pens. And thats without needles that I need to inject it with just so I don't die. Thank you Mr. Fucking President, you really did it this time. Thanks a lot.


P.S. Do not judge me ok, just please try to understand my point of view.

   Venuz <3<3<3