I can not help it to get angry at yo sometimes, yes I do love you but you know what does bother me more than anything?? Is the fact that when I send you a text, email or just a random message expressing my feelings towards you or just something I feel you end up telling me that I am exaggerating or that I am just angry. No I am not angry, no I am not exaggerating in anyway. I just want you to know what I am feeling at that moment.
If I tell you that I do not feel loved by you no more is because you are not paying attention to me, or because you do not respond back or just tell me idiotic things. At times I feel like I am not the one for you anymore. I feel you are starting to slowly forget about me, or that simply you just found someone else that does the things you want, someone that you can take control of. Yes I may be uncontrollable, I may not hear you or listen to you. But trust me I do pay attention to your needs more than my own. It just feels I am not the one for you anymore. It hurts me that you don't seem to care about me it just seems that way to me. I try to make conversations or just talk like we used to when we first me. Now it just seems that you just don't care anymore. Your always tiered or just complain about how work tires you or how tiered you are. Yes I do understand that but the fact that you just stop talking to me out of the blue or just don't reply back when I send you something makes me feel as if someone else has got your attention already. It hurts me to even think that, but if is so why cant you tell me that you do not want to be with me anymore. I don't want to feel forgotten about you or that I am not the one anymore.
When we first me and started talking you always had time to talk to me even if you were "tiered" or "busy" you always made time to talk to me, or just to ask how my day was. You just don't do that anymore.
I miss the days we would talk late at night about random things, even the things we wanted to do and what not. But you seem not interested anymore. I feel I am not interesting to you anymore, it seems like you just don't want me in your life anymore. You have hurted me in ways I cannot describe, you let people get in to this "relationship" we have and you just don't do nothing about it. You let your friends and family say nasty things to me, and you do nothing about it. You know is happening but seems you don't care.
I am starting to feel this empty loneliness, and sadness that I did not want to feel again. I am starting to lose interest in you, for the things you are doing to me. I am tiered of fighting for you and with you, I seem to have no control anymore in my self. I am starting to not want to be in this "relationship" anymore, why?? Because you are starting to be the things you said you would never be. You are turning in to that monster that you said you'd never be. You are not the guy I first met, your not that funny, sweet loving guy you used to be. Your not the guy that used to want to talk to me anymore, you don't listen to me or hear me out anymore. You are not the guy I used to know anymore, you are now just like the rest of the heard that does not care about his mate anymore. It hurts me knowing that you are losing interest in me, and that you just plainly don't care anymore.
It was good knowing you while it lasted, now I am left with the bittersweetness of the once relationship we used to have. Memories slowly starting to fade, loneliness filling me inside I am staring to slowly forget about your voice and facial features I once loved to see and hear. That touch that made me feel wanted and loved, that sweetness on your lips that made me want more, is just fading away now. It was good while it lasted, but now I know I wont get that anymore. It was good knowing you while it lasted.
Jupiter <3 <3
