For the past few days I have been thinking and perhaps, I should gather up my thing and move else where. Yes maybe it sounds weird, or as if I am trying to run away from something or my problems. But no I am not trying to runaway from anything or my problems at all. But in my mind I think starting fresh somewhere new would in part make me feel as free as any, and not feel as pressured as I do now. As work and the people I am around it makes me feel as if I am not doing the best. It all makes me feel as if I am being pressured down. It all feels as if I’m not my self anymore. It feels as if Im killing my self to live, in a job I do not enjoy anymore, where did it all go wrong. Where did it go from me willing to come in to work and enjoy my job to fuck this shit, I dont want to come in to work I hate this and the job sucks, and I hate the people I work with.
At first when I started the job I did enjoy it. It was looking forward to work, but all just changed and now work just seems to not be so enjoyable anymore. People wanting to fire everyone else including their “close friends” from work. Everything just seems to not be enjoyable anymore, at work at least.
I do not enjoy comming to work anymore, but I have to as bills wont pay them selves. Everyday people make it seem as if I’m the worse person around, it feels as if I am being forced to be someone I am not, feels as if I am forced to be someone else and not my self.
