It Feels Good…

   Today as we celebrate the 4th of July, I am celebrating it with family. I feel happy that I get to be with family this day, not because its a holiday or the 4th of July, but because I get to spend it with family. Something I did not think was possible as we are trying to heal past troubles, and traumas between us. Now that there is a new addition to our family, my nephew. That makes it all more too magical, as I never thought I was going to be an aunt this soon or ever, and now having a baby in the family it all just seems surreal yet happy and all okay.

    It makes me feel okay with my self that I am now starting to be a little bit closer wtih my sister, getting to know her all over again. Though perhaps things may not be the same as they were in the past with me and my family, but I want to believe its going to get better as time goes by. I hope things with my sister and I get better and become closer in so me way, as well as with my mom I hope everything gets better with her and I. Things changed overtime with us all, I am not so sure where everything went so wrong so bad, so fast that now I feel I dont know who I truly am or who my family is anymore. Though having spent one day wiht my family it all felt so right, it in some way felt like a dream, a dream I did not want to get away from.