Showing posts with label #LifeUpdates. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #LifeUpdates. Show all posts

Friday, May 10, 2024

Big life changes....

     So far, I have made some drastic changes to my life someway. For starters, I just recently had a small 'surgery' thing, from when I was in that car accident last year when I got hit by a shuttle bus, on my way to work on my bicycle last year. I went in to get some pain injections for my lower back. This was just a few days ago. I feel okay, just with some mild pain and discomfort on my lower back still. 

    Also, about a week or so ago, I left my apartment, and moved in with my mom temporarily. Just to save enough money to pay for breaking the lease and look for somewhere else to live. A better and bigger place, either an apartment or a house. Hopefully a house, but of course a house has to be one that I like just like everyone else that buys a house, right? Another thing as well that I was almost forgetting, is that I will soon be starting the job at the casino. I am excited for that though! Something different from my normal, in some way. So far this week or two that I have been with my mom I have felt good in some way. Don't give me wrong, I loved living on my own I do. Yet making a decision on moving in with my mom in a spare of a moment was one good thing that I think was good. It will not only help me save some money but as well help my mom in some way as well. As she has had some health problems as well and can barely keep up with the house on her own and all the dogs. So, I guess is a win, win in both situations, for me and for her in some way. I hope it all turns out for the good and that the relationship between her and I gets better instead for the worse. 

    I in some way like that I live far from everything, far from the center of the city, yes, I had many things close by to me that were walking distance from me. It was all nice, but at the same time it was not okay, homelessness was getting worse. I started to feel unsafe to even walk to the store around the corner from where I lived. I was getting harassed all the time and cat called. There were even a few times when people tried selling me drugs or sleep with me and what not, thinking I was 'a lady of the night' which if you are there is nothing wrong with that at all. I just do not do that nor will I go that route just for some quick fast money. I respect women who do that, mad respect for you that you have the guts to do so. But anyway, I always mostly kept to myself and barely came out of my apartment for anything unless it was for work, to walk Toby, Dr. Appointments, or grocery shopping. Rarely did I go out to have fun but if I did it was because I had planned it months in advanced or because a friend invited me out. I always stayed inside my apartment; I was antisocial homebody then, and I probably will be a homebody still, just coming out to the patio with the dogs, to enjoy the day, drink some coffee and talk to you guys, maybe even do some videos for YouTube along the way.

    I just recently started my Etsy shop as well, to sell hand made things and such with the help of my mom. As well as set up more things on my Depop shop as well as I have not had the chance to post anything for sale on my Depop, I have many things I have set on the side to sell on my Depop, I hope you all like them, as well as I will be working on some handmade headbands, handbags and such, all hand made. I was also thinking of making some handmade soaps, body scrubs and such. But I am unsure if any of you would be willing to buy any of that. As well as homemade/handmade doggy snacks and such. I am thinking of different ideas that I can make to sell all handmade and such. Let me know what you think, and what are the most looked for things handmade wise that people buy or that you would buy, for yourself and/or pet wise. I am open to ideas for my Etsy store.



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Friday, April 26, 2024

Hello Everyone! I have more life updates, unsure about what to do regarding such....

     So, I have talked to guys about me working at Dunking and such, which I do not hate/dislike working there. One thing though that I really do not like about it is that I do not get paid enough to pay bills, which I am too behind on. Not enough for groceries or even buy the dog food let alone take him to the vet to get medication for his heart murmur. It has come to that point that I have been looking for another job because I cannot afford life at this point. Everything is going up in price, again! At one point I was able to stretch my check and perhaps have some left over to take me and the dog out on a date or something and have something in my savings account, but all of that disappeared. UberEATS deliveries do not pay enough to make a livable wage from to afford bills in any way let alone buy water. I have been feeling too stressed and overwhelmed and my anxiety is through the roof it has been making me feel nauseous to the point it makes me vomit and will not let me keep anything down other than water of course. As well as it feels like I cannot rest well enough or sleep well enough to give my full best at work because of thinking of ways to make money ASAP and submitting applications like stupid everywhere and anywhere. Even though I always told myself I would never have two jobs. I do not want to be like everyone else and such but look at me now!! Looking for another damn fucking job just to be able to afford bills, rent, medications, take the dog to the vet and everything that comes about being a damn adult! A big damn pile of shit and bills to pay that you can never escape! Why did any one of us want to be adults....

    Talking about a second job, I had an interview for one of the major casino companies in Las Vegas and I got offered the job and got hired. The background check to come back took less than a week, and now I have to go do the processing of the paperwork at the corporate office. So long story short everything from filling out and submitting the application & interview to the background to now going to submit paperwork at the corporate office, took less than two weeks. I honestly thought it was going to take longer than it did for everything to come about and all. Now after I do the processing I will perhaps have to wait until I get told when I will start and get training out of the way before or after my first day and when I will be starting and how I will be able to get my schedule and such. As I had mentioned before, I always told myself, 'I will never get a second job that's stupid why do people do that, it is dumb' Now look at me about to start a damn second job, thing I never wanted to do, shit happens I guess, but this having two jobs will be temporary. I am not planning to have two jobs forever, it will just be for the mean time I get caught up on my bills and somewhat financially stable maybe to the point I only need just one job that pays well, enough and maybe just maybe!! A side gig thing to earn extra cash if possible, but that is it. I just want to get caught up on my bills and feel stable somehow financially to the point I just need one stable job that will pay me well, that I know I will feel comfortable and happy with and maybe see myself for the next few years or something. 

    This will be it for now, I will talk to you guys next time! Take care and stay beautiful!!



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                                                Venuz <3