So today I went to the library to return some books I borrowed for a paper for English class I had this spring semester, which going back to school for the spring after 10+ years. Oh man! I forgot how exiting yet tough it was. But what I came to find out, other than me being a stupid young person back in the early 2010’s failing classes and not attending class and such. Is that my pace and GPA is worse than I thought. As well as college classes have either gone up to damn expensive for just three classes $1200 or I was just an idiotic teen. Thinking I was on top of the world thinking it was going to be all good. Other than going through some deep shit with the person I was darting then. Making me blind on how good I had it then, and making me not pay attention in school and what not. I did wanted to attend summer classes yet coming to the realization on how expensive school is out of pocket specially. Not that I couldn’t pay for classes, just I didn’t have the money to pay the amount of money that I needed to pay today. As well as it made me think of how stupid I was when I was 18. I didn’t want to see how good I had it then and not attending classes like I was supposed to. It was stupid of me, because now its tough and difficult specially to bring my GPA up from a 1.0 to a 2.0. Not having the enough money to pay for the classes I needed to take, and being told Im not able yet to turn in papers for the damn appeal I desperately want to submit just because I’m in financial warning and not suspension? How in the hell does that work! I want to get that shit turned in yet I’m being told not to? Because of warning and not suspension? What is that! Now financial aid won’t pay for summer classes, so I have to pay out of pocket. Now Im being told I’m able to get financial aid but why do I have to pay for summer classes out of pocket yet financial aid wont pay? Can anyone explain that to me? How in the heckling world does that work?? Now I understand that I was not doing so well when I was 18. Not doing well at the time hurt me school wise that I am at risk of not getting financial aid anymore. I want to finish my degree that I started when I first started school then. How is no one able to help me or give me the answers that I need, or at least tell me where to go to get my school and financial aid straight. I had more than enough time to think of my future, better late than never, and I’m being sent in circles being told to go here, or there or not to do such things because I’m on warning not suspension. Im being told many many things other than a definite answer or where to actually go to get the help that I desperately need. Or who to even go to to give me the answers that I need. At this point I feel I should give up and out go forward with my degree anymore. Yet I have hope that someone will soon help me and tell me where and how I should do it, and how I can fix everything that I fucked up when I was 18 school wise. Where and how can I start from zero, so I can start clean and finish school, and give it my all like I was supposed to then. Where can I go and how can I do it. Something that does not cost me so much out of pocket for school.
Why does college have to be too damn expensive, specially in the US of A
