So, I have talked to guys about me working at Dunking and such, which I do not hate/dislike working there. One thing though that I really do not like about it is that I do not get paid enough to pay bills, which I am too behind on. Not enough for groceries or even buy the dog food let alone take him to the vet to get medication for his heart murmur. It has come to that point that I have been looking for another job because I cannot afford life at this point. Everything is going up in price, again! At one point I was able to stretch my check and perhaps have some left over to take me and the dog out on a date or something and have something in my savings account, but all of that disappeared. UberEATS deliveries do not pay enough to make a livable wage from to afford bills in any way let alone buy water. I have been feeling too stressed and overwhelmed and my anxiety is through the roof it has been making me feel nauseous to the point it makes me vomit and will not let me keep anything down other than water of course. As well as it feels like I cannot rest well enough or sleep well enough to give my full best at work because of thinking of ways to make money ASAP and submitting applications like stupid everywhere and anywhere. Even though I always told myself I would never have two jobs. I do not want to be like everyone else and such but look at me now!! Looking for another damn fucking job just to be able to afford bills, rent, medications, take the dog to the vet and everything that comes about being a damn adult! A big damn pile of shit and bills to pay that you can never escape! Why did any one of us want to be adults....
Talking about a second job, I had an interview for one of the major casino companies in Las Vegas and I got offered the job and got hired. The background check to come back took less than a week, and now I have to go do the processing of the paperwork at the corporate office. So long story short everything from filling out and submitting the application & interview to the background to now going to submit paperwork at the corporate office, took less than two weeks. I honestly thought it was going to take longer than it did for everything to come about and all. Now after I do the processing I will perhaps have to wait until I get told when I will start and get training out of the way before or after my first day and when I will be starting and how I will be able to get my schedule and such. As I had mentioned before, I always told myself, 'I will never get a second job that's stupid why do people do that, it is dumb' Now look at me about to start a damn second job, thing I never wanted to do, shit happens I guess, but this having two jobs will be temporary. I am not planning to have two jobs forever, it will just be for the mean time I get caught up on my bills and somewhat financially stable maybe to the point I only need just one job that pays well, enough and maybe just maybe!! A side gig thing to earn extra cash if possible, but that is it. I just want to get caught up on my bills and feel stable somehow financially to the point I just need one stable job that will pay me well, that I know I will feel comfortable and happy with and maybe see myself for the next few years or something.
This will be it for now, I will talk to you guys next time! Take care and stay beautiful!!
With Love,
Venuz <3
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