New job at the casino has been great! I am liking it so far. I have no complaints about nothing, I like the people I work with and management as well. They all are so good to me and the people I work with, it makes me want to come to work everyday. I am not dragging about coming to work, I actually wake up ready for a new day at work and what the day will bring me.
My mental health has not been the greatest the last few weeks. There has been a day here nad there when I feel the greatest, like I can take on the world. But more often than not, I have not been feeling the bestest. All I want to do is sleep or just be in bed, do nothing and think bout nothing. Most days it feels that I do not have the energy for noting at all, just nothing. When I am at work it feels as if I have a mask hiding everything that is wrong, every feeling that I have and every thought that crosses my mind. Most days all I want to do is disappear and not look back and start new somewhere else. All I want is jus a new life with new people new life experiences, just to start brand new. I have been putting so much thought in to that, that is what I want to do, in the super of the moment. Not tell anyone where I am or where I will be going, but of course I will be taking the dog with me, I cannot leave him behind.
Sooner than later I will be doing that, unsure where to or how, but will most probably will do that. But of course I will be doing research to where I would like to move to. Perhaps Salem, Massachussets? Or Connecticut, or even better New England, somewhere where it is beachy or most likely forest like. Just away from the big city and loud everything 24/7.
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