A Dollar Tree haul!!

Ok guys!! So I and my mom found these juices at our local Dollar Tree. We had first found 

about these juices a few months ago and she and I bought some and the flavors were 

mostly coconut water & passionfruit and coconut water & mango. But yesterday we found these flavor

coconut water and pineapple. It is so stinking good!! I love coconut water its so refreshing! and cooling to me at least specially when its iced cold on a hot summer day. I will keep on buying these as long as I can and as log as I find them at the Dollar Tree.

So! These stir fry cup of noodles, its a different flavor that is new to me.

I have had the BBQ one before, but I don't think I have seen that flavor before that I

can recall. But anyway, so I bought two of them just last night and I had one, and I can say it 

did not disappoint at all. Yes it was spicy, but not it burns your mouth type of way that it feels

there is fire in there and you feel like your about to die at all. Just enough spice that it will be okay to 

finish it in an okay amount of time.

Now guys! Let me start with the strawberry cookies okay!? I saw two packs left and

 I had to get them! I was excited that I was able to find even if it was two

 packs of the cookies the strawberry flavor.

Why you ask? Because the strawberry flavor cookies

are my favorite one. I was saddened when I found out a few years

back that Grandma's cookies had discontinued the strawberry flavor because

'it was not a good seller' I was told by the delivery person when I was working at a gas 

station at the time. I was bummed when I was told about that. But now every time I go to the grocery store and find strawberry flavor cookies, I have to get them. Yes I know its all fake flavors and lots of

sugar and all, but I still like them very much so.

When I was younger than what I am now, there was a time when I was

mostly in the hospital for months at a time. Because at the time I did not care and 

I was not taking care of myself or my diabetes *I'm a type one by the way* and I was 

mostly in the hospital. But anyway my mom used to buy me these sudoku puzzles thinking 

it would make me better at math or something. It never did, but what id did though was keeping me entertained. I enjoyed the heck out of these a lot. Saw a few sudoku puzzle books and decided for this one at the Dollar Tree. Because if I feel bored with anything else at home yet I want to busy myself with something. I can grab the sudoku book and work on it, just because.

So!! I saw three books including this one on the book section at Dollar Tree.

I was going to purchase all three, but I decided against it and went for this one instead. 

Only because I am not sure if I will like it or not, if I find that I like the writing and such, I will go back 

and purchase the other ones and give them a try. I also went for it because other than wanting to read it

I want to write my own review for the book. I have not found any reviews for this book or the author.

But anyway, I wanted to give it a try because why not, I also am reading Brynne Weaver's trilogy books all over again and writing my reviews on all three of them. I am enjoying the heck out of the books now more than I did the first time around. So I hope you are looking forward to that because I am. :)

As soon as I entered the store as typical of me I went straight to the DIY section. I do not know why I tend to do that to almost every store I go to if it has a DIY section I like heading towards that area. Anyway though, I found this industrial glue stick. Not exactly sure what I will use this glue stick for but I am sure Ill find a use for it. I like that it is a mess free glue stick. 

I grabbed these paints, because I have a wooden box drawer

that I bought at Ikea a few months ago when I went with my mom.

I had bought it because since I have lots of DIY items and nick knacks it serves 

well to store them well in there. But anyway! I bought the paints because I want to 

paint the wooden box now. I was originally going to buy three with the third one being 

purple but since I bout the pink and blue I figured I can mix both and make purple. I have

an idea on how I want to paint it, I just have to make do on the time to sit and paint.

So, I had been on the lookout for a coloring book for some time. I found several at the Dollar Tree

but this one caught my eyeballs more than the other ones. Of course, I had to grab it and opted to grab a new pack of crayons as well. The pack of crayons are new colors to me at least; I don't think I have seen that pack before. I am excited foe the coloring book, no I did not go for the coloring book because of Tick Tock or whatever! I don't even own an account to be honest. I just wanted one because I often times get bored, and I don't know what to do and since I mostly spend time in my room. I don't want to do anything else or even read or watch videos on YouTube or even moves so I went for this to pass time and not feel as bored as I often am. I just need one coloring book that I know I like and perhaps buy another one in the near future as long as I know I will be almost done with the one that I have. I do not need one hundred million books or colors, let alone expensive ones, that I probably will forget about. So yeah, I am okay with this one for the mean time thank you very much.

So, this soap! I found it at the Dollar Tree I have the Orangie looking one as well. Though I am on the hunt for the green one. I am excited that I have been able to find these at my local Dollar Tree store, specially that brand, I have read and heard a lot of good things about the brand. I am just missing the green one though I hope to find it soon. As I cannot wait to start using them. I also have had found other good name brands at the Dollar Tree even dupes of name brands that are jus as good if not better than the name brands in my opinion. 

These antibacterial hand wipes I like to carry them in my bag for just in case, especially when I'm out and about at the thrift store, or when I am out at the park and take my own food and my hands get sticky or don't have a restroom nearby or anywhere to wash my hands. To me these come in handy pretty much in about any occasion. I constantly wash my hands more so when I am out and abut and start feeling my hands nasty, dirty, sticky or a combination of all three. To me though they do come in handy in any occasion, even hand sanitizer. I like that these hand wipes are green apple scented. 

And last but not least! Deodorant! I needed some deodorant of course like any 'normal' person.

I saw this one and of course gave it some sniff sniff and I liked how it smelled! It smells more like Lavander than it does vanilla either way I like how it smells. I tend to go for the spray deodorant as I like it better and it does not stain my shirts at all, like it does with the bar ones like this one no matter the brand. Now since its summertime in Las Vegas, the spray deodorant does not do me on the least any justice. So I have to resort to the bar deodorant like this one, so I don't smell nasty, or nastier than I should when I'm out and about on this heat. 

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This is pretty much what I bought at my local Dollar Tree. I am pretty happy with my purchase and trust me none of this will go to waste. Everything will be used. All of it is what I wanted and needed anyway and it will sure keep me busy for some time. I will talk to you all next time.

Stay safe and Stray Beautiful.

                                                      With Love,

                                                                        Venuz <3

Butcher & Blackbird by Brynne Weaver

 

Hello everyone! So!...

Here's this book I discovered sometime last year I want to say?!

Not sure how (cant remember) I found out about this book, BUT!! I heard this book as an 

audio and I enjoyed it very much. Yes it’s very spicy, something I did not expect at all, also dark as well, yet funny. Yes it has dark humor. As well as the story of how two serial killers meet one another and end up falling in love with one another. They also have an anual game where they both haunt for other serial killers, Sloane get to ‘pluck’ the eyes out and gets to take a ‘trophy’ if you like dark romance, humor I highly recommend this book series.

Butcher & Blackbird, aka Rowan and Sloane, are two serial killers who haunt other serial killers. Both of them have their dark back stories of course as any serial killer right? Or not in certain circumstances. How Rowan and Sloane met was because it so happened they both were haunting for the same person or serial killer in their case. She Sloane had gotten to him the guy she killed first. He ended up caging her right after she stabbed him right before he fell and died. Rowan though came a few days later, and found her caged in. Dirty and bloodied not from her own blood but from the guy she had murdered just three days before Rowan arrived and let her out of that cage after questioning her and such. In some way it was funny to me. The comments he made and how she thought she looked all mangled and dirty for a first meet. Mind you she had been caged in for about three days though. After she was out and freshened up he invited her for ribs and beer. The way he could not stop staring at her chest, thinking she was such a beautiful creature, what was funny to me was the ‘no bra!’ thing he could not get out of his head. As well as how he was reading her in some type of way. The way he was looking at her looking for ways to escape. As they chatted and got to know each other in the beginning though. Just as they got to know each other and came up with an anual killing game. Hunting for a different and specific serial killer each year was interesting to me at least. It was funny how every time Rowan was able he’d tell her “you’ll love me one day!”. Him thinking she was going to fall for him first was a something else because he was the one who fell in love with her first. The way he protected her in almost every which way was adorable. Towards the end of the book when Rowan is taking Sloane to his brothers house the Dr. because of her dislocated shoulder. From the last haunt they made. They meet Rose who thinks Rowan is to blame for Sloan’s arm being dislocated and looking tall battered and beaten. That part of the book was way too hilarious to o me! How Rose calls him almost every name under the sun and the moon all the while describing how she’s going to murder him for what ‘he did’ to Sloane. As well as how Sloane describes what Rowan is to her ‘her man-guy’. Some of the dark parts of the book or at least how they were told were just funny to me but also far at the same time. Somewhere in the middle of the book if I recall correctly, is where they both Sloane and Rowan get invited to a cannibals’ serial killers house for ‘dinner’ but let me tell you that Rowan had no idea of the situation or who the host is. Long story short Rowan gets drunk and drugged, eats the ‘meat’ and slips out that he is in love with Sloan all the while she is trying to make him realise what’s going around him specially who the ‘servant’ of the host who she thinks is lobotomised. Hours after Rowan wakes up realises what is going on she ends up killing the guy who invited them for dinner and let’s just say, that when they found the guy who was  ‘lobotomised’ . He was eating vanilla ice cream, and let’s just say that some of the ingredients in that ice cream….where well….an ice cream ruined situation for me. The vanilla flavour at least was. Other than that I loved the book overall, yes dark, funny, romantic and highly spicy in some type of way. If you like all then I highly recommend and suggest you read the book. It may make you want the love that Rowan and Sloane have for one another. At least it did for me.

*Remember…. Butcher & Blackbird (B&B) is the first book in the series *

With Love,

               Venuz <3

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Hello....how my diabetes is going, and the job search?

    Hello everyone! How is everyone doing? Me, I'm doing well now after close to two weeks of my mom having to call the paramedics because of low blood sugars and such, with one of those being a adjustment disorder. I of course made an appointment with the Psychiatrist that I am seeing at the moment because of the car accident that I was in some time ago, I think I told you guys about it a few posts ago, I think. it also had something to I want to think in regards of the medication that I am taking for depression and such. I do not remember anything that lead up to that incident at all. I just know I woke up in the hospital, crying to myself and telling myself that I was not crazy and such. It all felt overwhelming and unsure of what to do after that. I though just took it easy for a few days of course and making calls to make an appointment to the Psychiatrist and talking it over with the speech therapist.

    A few days later again my mom had to call the paramedics because once again my blood sugar was low. All of this was in a span of close to two weeks. Now yesterday once again my mom had to call once again in regards of my blood sugar being low. I do not know what is going on and the why I keep having these low blood sugars at night. I make sure I eat something right before bed. Also, my mental health being shit as well. I am sure that if my mom ends up having to call the paramedics a few more times and I end up in the hospital I will be well known, and I might as well end up admitting myself into the hospital next time I end up in there just in case.

    Now...job searching has been stupid. I have applied almost everywhere that I for sure know are hiring and that I have the qualifications for, yet no one calls for an interview, some are nice enough to send a rejection email, which is nice at least they had the decency to send that email that I was not picked amongst who knows how many had applied before me. Maybe the people they picked had a lot more experience than I did or saw something that they liked in that person/s other than what they saw on my resume or application. I'm not giving up though. The 'free' time that I have I get to make YouTube videos and will have to update you guys a lot more on here than I had ever. Though I surely do not know what you guys will like to read or watch on YouTube. Everyone is welcome to leave a comment on what will you like to read or even if you'd like to watch my YouTube videos. 

Hey! How have you been? Long time no talk.

    Hello everyone! It has been a long while since we have talked. A lot has changed and happened since last time we spoke. I can’t begin to explain everything that has gone right and wrong. Though even with the challenges that I am currently experiencing I am grateful for the things that have gone right with it all. Grateful that I get to wake up another day and extremely happy that I also get to spend time with my four legged baby-child yes may sound crazy but he’s the only thing that is making me feel sane and happy. 

   I’ve got so many things I am planning for and others I’m still planning for. Just not sure when it all will come to light. There is so much I want to talk about with you all. I’m just not sure how or when everything will come together. For the mean time I am focusing on myself, Toby (the dog) and getting my life back together.

  Thank you so much for reading/dealing with my thoughts and delusions that I write about. I just wanted to come by and let you all know that I’m alive. You guys should hear/read from me sometime next weekend. Stay amazing and beautiful! And throw glitter bombs at someone you love/hate

                                      With Love,

                                                   Venuz <3

Hello! Friends!…*coffee blog*

   Hello everyone! I hope everyone is doing well wherever you are. I have lately been feeling a mix of anxiety, happiness, exhaustion happy and being overwhelmed. I am little by little seeing days/life in a very positive way in some sort of way. Three positive things for every negative, if that makes sense. I do the best I can to tell myself something positive every day, or when I feel down and not myself. 

   Job wise though I am getting a bit closer to where I want to be! That is something that I am very proud of myself, because it means I am going after what I want! Perhaps not right away but I am closer than I was. I feel it in my gut I will get offered the job internally within MGM Resorts! For Massachusetts I know I will, even though they may have denied and withdrawn my application. I will keep on submitting applications for retail, until they give me the opportunity! 

    Other than that, I have been doing my best to feel happy with myself, compliment myself every single day, or any chance I get. Love myself as much as possible, while having my four legged ball of fluff by my side. No one will believe in me more than the dog will, and that’s more than enough for me! 

                  With Love,

                                Venuz <3

Hello again friends!! After a long while…

    Hello friends!! It has been quite a while since we last talked. It has been about three months now? Close to four but it feels like it has been longer than that. A lot has happened since then. Other than starting the current job I have now at one of the casinos here in Las Vegas. I like it, the people I work with are great, management is amazing! I love it, I feel happy there I really do. I’ve been on my position as a retail associate for about five to six months now, which is great but I have had been looking for similar positions at other properties that the company has at other states, that I am willing to relocate to. Just today I was able to talk to a recruiter from one of the properties in Washington DC, I was happy that I was able to get a ‘interview’ as being internal is good as I get priority just like any other internal employee. I was told by the recruiter to wait for the hiring managers call soon, as the person sent my application to the hiring manager/s. I am happy that this is coming true! I’m a step closer than I thought to move to a different state! Away from Las Vegas, NV. I am so happy! A step closer to what I want!

    I am not happy in this town anymore, around certain people who drain me away from my energy. Their negative energy and thoughts are what drains me and strips me away from my whole being. I cannot express it enough how much the person drains me away from everything and try’s to gaslight me and make me think I’m stupid and crazy, as if I’m the bad person. They are the reason I am doing the best I can to get away and as far away from this place as I can. They are the reason why I’m medicated for depression and anxiety, they are the reason I do not trust them anymore or anyone else for that matter. They are the reason why I am wanting to move away from this town. 

    I just hope I get the call from the hiring manager from the company’s property in Washington DC soon and know where I stand and know if I will get offered the job *which I hope I do!!* and how long they’ll give me to pack all my things and move. Though I originally wanted and still do want to move to Massachusetts, but moving to Washington DC will be closer to Massachusetts and perhaps easier to move and such. Either way I am very happy that all of this is happening to me and being a step closer than ever is amazing!!

                     P.S. Stay Beautiful! We’ll talk next time 

                                    With Love,

                                                 Venuz’s <3

Hello Again Friends…

   I have been giving it so much thought lately about moving to perhaps somewhere else away from Las Vegas (Sin City). I feel it on my soul and bones that it may just be what I need to do for my own good. The craziness around, how rude and mean people are, has been lately what has been making me feel unwell, mentally, physically and emotionally. People now do not seen to know basic manners anymore, at least here in Las Vegas. 

    Lately I have not been feeling happy or remotely happy anymore, my energy levels feel drained the moment I wake in up to when I go to bed just to do it all over again the next day. Nothing really brings me joy in this town, the only way I feel most myself is when I am home with my dog. I have had been thinking as I mentioned before to move else where away from this town, and away from the people. As it all makes me feel drained, unwell, and upset, about what?? I am unsure, this community and this town just seem to want one thing and they can all agree with one thing, and that is money, who can look better than the next person, and who has more than the next. Who has the best body, the best big boobs and the best big butt, all thanks to plastic surgery and Botox. And for what?? Just to look the same as the next person or worse?? These are few of the reasons why I would like to move away from this town,

    A fairytale life just seems more enticing than the real world now, romanticizing my life seems much much better than becoming just like everyone else. 

                                                    With Love,

                                                                Venuz <3

 

I dream of a lovely dream…

    I have been dreaming of a dream a lovely one that is for sure. As if I have lived that life before, a very beautiful one. I would love to live that beautiful life of a dream I dream about often in real life, experience and enjoy every single moment of it. As well as share those beautiful moments with the perfect person for me and fury friends. As I try to enjoy this beautiful life in the present day, with the people closest to and love. 

   I want the life I dream about, I want to live it I want to have it. Just as beautiful if not better than what I dream about, as this lovely beautiful life I dream of makes me be a better version of myself everyday. A beautiful life is what I want a slow and peaceful beautiful life. One where I live as if I were in a fairytale. Life is sweet to me, I just feel as if I could live a calm lovely life in a much better place than I could at the moment. One where I don’t feel pressured about anything or stress in any solder of way. 

               With Love, 

                          Venuz <3

Hello again friends!

  I hope everyone has been doing well these past weeks or days. I have been busy in sone type of way with work, and helping my mom as much as I can with caring for my nephew once a week, as well as making sure I get some merchandise done for my Etsy store that I will be opening soon. I am unsure if I ever mentioned that to you guys. I want to get some merch done as I mentioned so I can start setting it up and start selling the hand made accessories that I am working on with my moms help of course. 

   New job at the casino has been great! I am liking it so far. I have no complaints about nothing, I like the people I work with and management as well. They all are so good to me and the people I work with, it makes me want to come to work everyday. I am not dragging about coming to work, I actually wake up ready for a new day at work and what the day will bring me. 

   My mental health has not been the greatest the last few weeks. There has been a day here nad there when I feel the greatest, like I can take on the world. But more often than not, I have not been feeling the bestest. All I want to do is sleep or just be in bed, do nothing and think bout nothing. Most days it feels that I do not have the energy for noting at all, just nothing. When I am at work it feels as if I have a mask hiding everything that is wrong, every feeling that I have and every thought that crosses my mind. Most days all I want to do is disappear and not look back and start new somewhere else. All I want is jus a new life with new people new life experiences, just to start brand new. I have been putting so much thought in to that, that is what I want to do, in the super of the moment. Not tell anyone where I am or where I will be going, but of course I will be taking the dog with me, I cannot leave him behind. 

   Sooner than later I will be doing that, unsure where to or how, but will most probably will do that. But of course I will be doing research to where I would like to move to. Perhaps Salem, Massachussets? Or Connecticut, or even better New England, somewhere where it is beachy or most likely forest like. Just away from the big city and loud everything 24/7.